Now that Christmas is over, it is the time for reflection. With the new year right around the corner, taking the time to evaluate how far we have grown or how much we’ve learned this year. Let’s be honest, 2020 has been one heck of a year! There is so much to reflect on or think about because so much has happened to everyone this year. Our way of life changed drastically. Being masked in public was a thing of necessity. Death and grief became an everyday story on the news. Nothing was unbelievable this year!
I lost my grandmother in February this year just before the pandemic hit. Then I was in a household with someone who was a frontline worker in the hospital, and that was stressful for everyone in the house. Then a lot transpired, but I moved out on my own for the first time ever in life! Man, was that scary! I was blessed because my job owns properties, so I found a place that fits me perfectly. I’ve had some frustrations along the way, but I work with a great team of people and I have some great friends that helped me stay somewhat calm. I had some health issues arise, but I will have them corrected in the new year. They really were a blow to deal with, but nothing that can’t be handled.
There were some good things that came from this year. I reconnected with some friends who I haven’t really spent time with in a while. I realized that I miss my friends, because they always encouraged me to keep going and I love them for that. I was blessed to have worked through the pandemic when so many others lost their jobs and livelihoods. Even with my health issue, I have learned there is always a way to achieve something. I have grown closer to my little cousins, who make me feel warm and emotional every time they say my name (which according to my cousin is all the time, even in their sleep)! I have learned so much about myself…be kind to myself, be patient with myself, allow myself to heal in my own time, it’s ok to not be ok, I’m stronger than I know I am, and self care is mandatory.
Going into the new year, I am going to actively take these new lessons into action. I will have a procedure done to resolve my health issues. I will be more present. I will be more active and eat healthier. I will deal with my stress and anxiety from the chaos of 2020. I will make sure to practice self care. I will spend more time with my friends and family, and cherish those moments more. And most important, I will make sure to do the things I’ve been afraid to do in 2021.